Birthday Season

Ive been kinda busy the last few days, running around and just getting things done. Boston's 4th birthday is next saturday and then Ashlynn's 14th is sunday, all followed by Natalie's 6th on the following saturday. Its wearing me out.
I've been noticing that Ive been kind of depressed lately. I think its because I'm lonely. I dont get a real lot of adult time. But we are going on vacation in March and I am really looking forward to just relaxing for a week, my parents are going to watch the kids too! It was really nice of them to offer.
I think it might be birthday season here that is getting me down. I dont like to see years pass and I feel like I havent done enough with them all, Ashlynn is going to be 14 for goodness sake! I feel like I have missed out on so much. I miss her terribly. I am making some scrapbook pages for her book and I was trying to do a newborn page but I dont have a baby picture of her so I did some research and called the hospital that she was born at and asked is they have records of the photos. They dont before 2000. I was upset. Nobody has a picture of this kid as a baby. I did however send for her medical records from that hospital so we could find out how much she weighed at birth. Her mother does not remember. ( I personally dont understand how a mother could not remember!) But, oh well. I hope its in those records.