just thinking

So Im trying to put the little chunks of my life back together again and I have to stop and think "What am I trying to create here?" Stability? Im just not sure at the moment. Kids are doing pretty good considering all the changes that have been going on. They seem to be emotionally holding up better than I do per say. Part of me craves that normal life and the other part is just dying for the changes that are presenting themselves almost daily. Hmmm...Im in need of a mind clearing day. I might have to take one soon.  The 8-5 M-F is probably not going to suit me forever.