Note to self.

• Chickens eat moon sand.
• Little boys should NEVER under any circumstance have access to an ink pad. I now have bright pink ink all over my couch. I have BOTH my boys to thank for that.
• If you eat more than one bowl of fiber one cereal in a day your stomach will hurt all night long.
• If you cant find your breath savers look inside your shoes. I found all of them in my gym shoes today (thanks luke)
• Luke has decided that he will now only answer to "Luigi".
• That makes me "Bowser". As in "I love you Bowser,you are the best Bowser in the world!"
• My children will do just about anything for a little debbie oatmeal cream pie.
• I will do almost anything for a homefires peach scone. Ohhh...that sounds heavenly right now.
• Tom WILL do anything for pecan pie.
• Im going to take ballroom dancing lessons.....guess who is going to take them with me.....MY TOM! Im so excited. Even if I suck it should still be a different experience for me to cross off my bucket list.

Day 1

I didnt update how my appt went.I went and saw a new doctor specializing in mental health, not a psychiatrist but one step below one. Heres a rundown of how it went...

1. I told her EVERYTHING that I think about on a daily basis.
2. I think I scared her to death. She physically backed her chair away from me and hoped that I wouldnt notice...I did.
3. I finally came to terms with the fact that I have extreme anxiety along with another disorder that Im not going to mention. (sorry, I have to keep some things to myself)
4. I bawled about that. God bless waterproof mascara.
5. We discussed the pros and cons of daily medication to help what I am going through...(read: she discussed pros and I discussed cons.) I probably went on for a half hour about how I WILL NOT take medication that will make me fat. End of story, I dont care how "wonderful" it is for people like me,I wont do it.
6. We talked about what I need to give up to start feeling better.....

• Crime TV (Snapped,CSI,48 hours, pretty much anything that I like)
• Caffeine (done that.....Woot! 1 1/2 yearr now!)
• Alcohol (now wait a stinkin minute here! Im going to have to "discuss" this one with her a little more. I dont drink often at all! In the last 6 months I have had 3 drinks! )

Im happy I went in the end.

We did decide on a medication for me to "try". I started it this morning. I felt like puking most of the morning, Im not sure if its the medication or if I am psyching myself up about it. I guess time will tell.

So Sorry...

Ive been pretty much MIA lately. Sorry, Ive been sick and so very much not myself. Its hard to be witty and original when you are feeling both physically and mentally sick. I had a major breakdown last night followed by a seizure and im still feeling the effects of that.
Believe me I want more than anything to get back to normal and for some reason its just not working for me. Im headed to the Dr tomorrow to try and get some things figured out.

Updates

1. Ducks and Chicks are 18 weeks old, expecting eggs in the very near future, however I have 2 boy ducks and one girl, boo.....I got ducks for the eggs and now will only be getting one-ish every few days.
2. Moonsand fits perfectly into electrical outlets. (thanks luke!)
3. Moonsand is not easy to remove from outlets. I taped the vacuum hose to the wall for 30 minutes.
4. Im still having a hard time coping with the loss of my grandfather. Margaritas with friends sure helps though. I havent laughed like that in a long time, Thanks girls!
5. Pedicures that end in bright blue toenails with the color being "Teal the cows come home" sure make me happy. Its like it was "meant to be" ;)
6. Brian gave me a BB gun (till collin is old enough to use it). How cool is that? I am just waiting for some unwanted animal to make its appearance in my yard!
7. I caught my boys today mooning the TV. We have one of those kid cameras that lets the kids watch themselves on the TV. Both had pants around their ankles and were shaking it to "old mac donald".
8. My male mallard duck HATES my dog. Happy goes outside and Tank just charges at him. I heard the dog yelp and noticed that the duck had a mouthful of fur! Evil creature! Sadly it is kind of funny to watch.
9. Ive been faithfully going to the gym 5 days a week. Its working well for me and the person working there that early in the morning talks to me and keeps me happily distracted from what I am actually doing (running). Ive lost close to 25 lbs. (Part of that due to Mono)

My life can be both mundane and insane at the same time. Thanks for listening to me y'all. I appreciate it alot.

Mono brings out the best/worst in me......

Some Pros

• Weight loss
• reason for extra sleep
• definite decreased appetite
• it makes me remember to take my vitamins along with my regime of dayquil/benadryl/any pain killer I can get my hands on.
• Im hopefully half way done with this illness! 2ish more weeks to go and I should fell up to par!

Some Cons

• No alcohol drinking at the joint birthday party. Totally sucked except for Adam was wildly entertaining. I did end up with a half naked man poster which I love! (however I was informed that it CAN NOT hang in our bedroom. Sheesh...what a spoil sport ;) )
• Not being able to eat anything solid. I tried to have a dorito the other day and regretted that choice about 2 seconds into it.
• Having to sleep with a heating pad on your ears sucks. I wake up looking like a sweaty warthog (Swollen glands and bright red face). Not that I have ever actually seen a sweaty warthog, but that is definately what I picture it in my head to look like.....just go with it ;) .
• Its lonely when you are the only one awake at 5 am.

The many super powers of mom.....

I had some good conversation with Natalie while i was driving her to school this morning. I am apparantly "cool" when it comes to things that I can do.

1. I can make donuts. We made apple cider donuts for breakfast for the two of us. She thought that was awesome.
2. I can wake up WITHOUT an alarm clock.
3. When I eat food and spill it magically gets stuck in between my boobs. Apparantly just having boobs is cool.
4. I can do the splits (still! I know!)
5. AND I know all the words to her favorite song...."1985" Bowling for soup.

I love that kid.

I thought that we were past this!

I took Natalie to the Dr yesterday because she had complained the entire night from 11pm on the other night about her ears hurting. We get there and they cant see her ear drum at all, so as they were getting us an appt to the eye and ear clinic across the street Luke informs me that he has to poop. I ask him to wait just a minute until we can get the referral. Then I hear "Mom, I just poop in my pants". It was diarrea everywhere....down the hall of the dr office(Imagine little poopy footprints) , all over his shoes, I had to throw his pants away and They gave me a diaper for him. I ended up carrying my 4 year old in a diaper to the other appt for Natalie. Im pretty sure that I looked like the biggest piece of white trash out there. Ugh, After all was said and done Natalie does have an ear infection.

Hard times for me...

My grandpa Dooley passed away last monday and I ended up going to the funeral in Arkansas. It was a beautiful service except for the part when they opened the casket. I didnt know that they were going to do that. I cant get the image of him out of my mind and I think its making me crazy. Im tired of the nightmares that come with it. I cried through the whole funeral and then some...Im still crying over a week later. How long is it normal for someone to greive? We went to the burial service too and I was NOT ready for that at all! I just want to forget that it ever happened. I think that I have serious PMS along with this ....I cried because I missed Karalee this morning(no i didnt call, I didnt want her to listen to me bawl). I missed my husband terribly and was so happy to be back home with him and my beautiful babies.
I NEVER want to travel with my parents or sister again. And I wont. I wanted to punch my sister in the face....I still want to so I am going to avoid her for awhile, A LONG while.